inevitably, here they are....
My resolutions for the new year....some frivolous, some not. but resolved they are nonetheless. Although, i wonder...why it is we feel the need to push the idea at the beginning of each year, like it's some obviously spiritual time for cleansing. the new year being something that is a mere measurement to exact everything that is not spiritual. things defined by humanity and our incessant need to ...well, define. While the trees, the insects, the animals do not acknowledge this our new year. it is not even agreed upon by all of humanity, different cultures and races determining their own time for renewal. why do we insist on pushing our own need for rebirth at this time? I am all for a spiritual cleansing, or even a moment of self-acknowledgement. I just question the idea that it is always on Joelene's birthday. Somewhat selfish of us to hog this day and not let her use this day as her day for introspection and rebirth since it is indeed the anniversary of her birth! I just wonder that we don't choose different times, appropriate only to ourselves for this realization of our own limits and lessons learned. and our resolutions to re route our lives.
All that aside...i have decided to immortalize my resolutions in the hopes that these cosmic wishes will work as written affirmations. and i believe they will. Everyone knows, I'm not so much for doing anything i don't feel like doing....so i wouldn't resolve if i didn't believe. I wouldn't affirm if i didn't think it was possible. but then, i think anything is possible for me. I think it is all possible for anyone who believes. (I can hear you shaking your head, but I also believe you can cram it with walnuts!)
Begin everyday as though it were on purpose.
I don't remember where i heard this or who said it, but i certainly can't take credit. I do, however, think it is a sensational way to begin each day and live your life. I am happy today. Today is the reason I was born. Yesterday doesn't matter and tommorow is uncertain. Today, however, has never abandoned me. it is tried and remains ever true, for that I will not forsake today by being a fair-weather friend.
No more boys gone through like water.
It's too easy. And so few have proven worth spending time with. Therefor, I will drink more water (8 glasses a day!) and put down the boys. I'll have to find my "sorry boys, I'm gay" button. or take Marijana and her pen with me to write about my un-dead status.
Stop wasting skills and skipping activities i love for things that don't matter !
I was at one point fluent in french and proficient at ASL. throw in my passably conversational spanish and i could use these as an asset if i could polish them up a little. Not to mention my lack of painting in the last 6 months. My collages and journals having been left behind with my painting. (left behind both literally and figuratively) I love them. They make me happy, so i must spend more time at the things i love.
No more dying my hair anything other than blonde or cutting it (more than a trim) until after Steph's wedding!
Stop pretending I don't love people i do. Stop pretending i do love people i don't.
Ugh. Hard. Hard because of expectations. but harder to live with than without.
Be happy. without explanation or justification.
All that aside...i have decided to immortalize my resolutions in the hopes that these cosmic wishes will work as written affirmations. and i believe they will. Everyone knows, I'm not so much for doing anything i don't feel like doing....so i wouldn't resolve if i didn't believe. I wouldn't affirm if i didn't think it was possible. but then, i think anything is possible for me. I think it is all possible for anyone who believes. (I can hear you shaking your head, but I also believe you can cram it with walnuts!)
Begin everyday as though it were on purpose.
I don't remember where i heard this or who said it, but i certainly can't take credit. I do, however, think it is a sensational way to begin each day and live your life. I am happy today. Today is the reason I was born. Yesterday doesn't matter and tommorow is uncertain. Today, however, has never abandoned me. it is tried and remains ever true, for that I will not forsake today by being a fair-weather friend.
No more boys gone through like water.
It's too easy. And so few have proven worth spending time with. Therefor, I will drink more water (8 glasses a day!) and put down the boys. I'll have to find my "sorry boys, I'm gay" button. or take Marijana and her pen with me to write about my un-dead status.
Stop wasting skills and skipping activities i love for things that don't matter !
I was at one point fluent in french and proficient at ASL. throw in my passably conversational spanish and i could use these as an asset if i could polish them up a little. Not to mention my lack of painting in the last 6 months. My collages and journals having been left behind with my painting. (left behind both literally and figuratively) I love them. They make me happy, so i must spend more time at the things i love.
No more dying my hair anything other than blonde or cutting it (more than a trim) until after Steph's wedding!
Stop pretending I don't love people i do. Stop pretending i do love people i don't.
Ugh. Hard. Hard because of expectations. but harder to live with than without.
Be happy. without explanation or justification.
posted by Laura @ 9:50 PM
1 Comments:
At 12:02 AM,
Anonymous said…
I love your resolutions! especially the one about the boys! WRT to boys, my resolution is to stop dating boys that are jerks, and to not settle for anything less than what i deserve! We ladies have smart minds and romantic hearts and i think after a year of dumb boys we are entitled to so much more! Here's to a New Year!
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