Let the obsession begin.....

Harmless, of course, since we all know how I tend to pick things up passionately and then quickly and suddenly change course. Therefor, I will obsess now and be sane later. maybe. well, as sane as I ever am. which is in the eye of the beholder, it would seem. Kelly told me recently that it's dangerous when i don't have a job. I think too much for anyone's good. I am fairly certain she's right. I write, progression on my book that will be interesting to me and me alone, progression nonetheless. I sing, to one of the three cds that I have left after my flight from miami and my mom's Chicago soundtrack (how much would i love to be a part of a performance of the cell block tango!?!?). I pontificate, I analyze, I philosophize. I make plans for my future, then I break them off and make new ones, then i break those off and make newer plans still. And, I drag Wes out to listen to all of my obsessions. including, but not limited to misconceptions of Feminism, abortion/privacy dangers and the future thereof in the US and Canada, my dreams about stealing neglected children and bringing them all home to make sure they are loved (literally i had a dream about taking someone's baby). And of course we also go for lovely walks and just enjoy each other's company. And go to the movies.....which brings us to my most recent obsession, pictured above.

Tyler Hilton. Wes, mom and I went to see Walk the Line and I was sooo impressed by this unknown guy who played Elvis. so, i looked him up (again i have a lot of free time before i head to watertown, NY) . Well, as it turns out he fits the bill of the kind of guy that I find adorable.
The following are a list of my weak points:

a) the 'Boston' type facial structure-----check
b) guitar player------------------------check
c) crazy hair---------------------------check
d) height------------------------------check (i wonder if he's 6'2"? that would be perfect)

Anyway, he's adorable and I'm mildly obsessed. i say mildly because I have yet to do anything too crazy. and while i may do things that perhaps my loved ones find inadvisable, I am not one for degrading myself in the manner of celebrity worship. not since the Harrison Ford vigil of 1996-2000. After that I 'grew up'. I am a grown up, i suppose and didn't want, over a crush anyway, to act like a 12 year old girl. I don't think i've even had a crush on anyone. Once you are 'grown up', it's not so much crushing as it is just pursuing. But, my crush on Tyler Hilton (did i mention he's damned adorable) probably results from the fact that i won't be ACTUALLY pursuing him. I will just listen to his music and daydream about how cool i would be if we hung out. resultingly, of course, he would fall in love with me.
Although, I'm not asking for him to fall in love with me. Goodness knows (as you all do) I tend to bolt over such feelings anyway. I'm not asking to get married or to have his children. I just think we should hang out/make out, whatever. We would have beer and nachos. sufficiently neutral and fun foods. I think that would be enjoyable all around. HE would be a fool not to want to hang out with me right? I mean, to know me is to love me, right?

Of course, when i told wes that i had a crush on Tyler his first question was...."does he have a girlfriend?" ah, the harsh reputation of a homewrecker.