Loving might be a mistake, but it's worth making

First day back after a weekend in Watertown, NY. I am on the downswing of my cold and feeling blah. The girls, thankfully, are better. I played with them this morning and then dropped them off at daycamp. So, I am free until 12.

Another bittersweet weekend. Steph, Jerry, Me and Rex had a great time all weekend. On saturday we spent a perfect day out on the lake in Jerry's boat. tubing, swimming and enjoying the beautiful weather. Then we went back to their apartment for a barbeque and a late night game of charades. Rex, now that he is my boyfriend, had to be inducted into our crazy tradition of pictionary/charades. He was skeptical at first, but hey, Jerry was the first time too. After having claimed to be a poor charader, Rex proved to be pretty adept at both acting and drawing our bizarre references. While we still lost miserably, we put forth a valiant effort. and next year, Team Stover/Fortin is going down! Team Sweet/Sexy is gonna bring home the trophy.

All in all it was a weekend of perfect happy times. I am so happy to have Rex. He has made me happier than i've ever felt. IT's bizarre to be with someone who has not annoyed me in any way. I know that sounds strange. There are very few men who don't have something that makes me think "ugh!" Not that i think we will never annoy each other. I may be in love, but i'm not that naive. But, i'm usually so quick to find something that sucks. and there's really nothing i would change about him. We are the same in all the right ways. Which makes me feel badly for those who will keep company with us in the future. We will be that obnoxiously happy and boisterous couple who are constantly stealing the show. The ones that everyone wants to come to their party, but will incite more than a few eye rolls in the mean time.

So, now my future is ...well...i'm pondering so much. Will I ever move back to Canada? I love it so much and have never wanted to be a permanent resident of the US. Now, though Rex and I have been discussing our future plans. After I am done here in Florida I will be moving up to Watertown to be there when he gets back from Iraq. Then, depending on whether or not he re-enlists, i will be moving with him to either Louisiana or Texas. So, why am i keepingmy partment in Elmvale? i don't want to give it up. I love it so much even if i'm not there. but i kept it with the thought that i would live in it again one day. Now, if i'm not moving back then i might as well give it up and start saving that extra money. it's all so crazy. but he's so great.

I couldn't imagine being much happier. Unless, i got to actually be nearer to him instead of being here while he's in Iraq. That is pretty sucky. Good thing I'm a lover of correspondence. and i have a stockpile of pretty stationary.

He was the sweetest when he saw me off at the airport yesterday. Holding me while i cried like a little baby. Why must i be so dramatic? I am not good at holding back the tears. I cried all the way to the gate, kept it together (sort of) for boarding and then cried, sobbed actually while we took off. I felt badly for the gentleman sitting next to me. It must have been awkward. I had my earphones on, listening to Alanis while i stared out the window and cried all the way to Philadelphia.

It's an odd thing to be someone's girlfriend again after all this time of being single. All of you who questioned my need to be single, and were told that i wanted to continue until i found someone worth changing my lifestyle for....i found him. and now i have committed seriously and to the idea of waiting while he is in Iraq. My boyfriend leaves for Iraq on saturday. how heartbreaking. but he's worth it. i've never known someone who could even come close to contending with Rex for being worth waiting for. I am happy.